Why Blogging is an Arena for Me and How I’m Trying to Live Brave


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Every time I sit down to write a meaningful blog post lately, I face feelings of fear and self-doubt.

Will it be good enough? What if no one cares about this “fearless” stuff? What if I’m making a huge mistake by opening up like this?

For the past year and a half, I’ve been reading and following Brené Brown’s work on shame and vulnerability, but only recently began to deeply study and apply it to my life everyday, including taking online courses, in-person classes and, you guessed it, my very own therapist. I’m working to get to the heart of my own shame issues — some of which you read about in my last post on letting go of perfectionism — that prevent me from really showing up in the various arenas in my life.

What is an arena?

An arena is defined by Brené as any part of your life where you want to show up, be seen for who you really are and live brave. We each have different arenas and likely want to fully show up to them in different ways.

An arena may be a relationship you value with a friend or family member. It could also be school, work, motherhood, church, dating, acquaintances, social media, etc.

My biggest arena right now is blogging, and with it Instagram. In fact, Instagram is a huge shame trigger for me.

I’ve recently been learning about shame shields, the physiology of shame (deciphering what happens to our physical senses when we’re in shame) and why it’s important to be able to recognize when we’re in shame so we can move through it with authenticity.

Side note: If you feel uncomfortable when I mention the word shame, you’re definitely not alone. I’ll break it down more (specifically, the role it plays in my life) in future blog posts. But in short, shame is “the painful feeling or belief that we’re flawed and therefore unworthy of love and belonging.”

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Our arenas are complex.

When you think of an arena, what comes to mind? I see the Roman Colosseum, like in Gladiator, one of my favorite movies ever. The seats in the arena represent the people who send or have sent messages about us, as well as the messages themselves.

For example, in my blogging arena, my struggle has been primarily with the perceived expectations of being a fashion blogger. Early on, I wanted to lean into the discomfort of those expectations, face my fears of being enough, and prove to myself I could do it by exercising courage.

The seats in my arena are filled with the people who have criticized me along the way for “copying another blogger,” “not being fearless for wearing my hair the same way all the time,” and downright “unflattering outfits” (yes, these are all things that were actually said to me).

At times, these messages were my own: “Who do you think you are? You’re not pretty enough to be doing this. Lose some weight already. You better wait until your life is more perfect to share it with everyone.”

I’ve certainly been the worst critic in my own arena. Sadly, I think this is often the case for many of us.

The good news is, my blogging arena seats are also filled with people who support me in my efforts to be my most authentic self. We each have these people in our arenas, even if we don’t think we do. And I’m finding they’re just difficult to hear over the noisy critics section, especially if the critics are in our own heads.

Over time, I realized I had been listening to the messages of fear in my arena, more than the messages of empathy and courage, and I put up my perfectionism shield (my armor) to protect me from the fear of not being enough. At least if I wasn’t sharing my true self, I didn’t have to face the pain of my true self being rejected.

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Who is in your arena?

In every arena there are the cheap seats, the box seats, the critics section and the support section.

The Cheap Seats include anonymous critics — those who criticize us, but are not connected to our day-to-day lives. For me, this primarily consists of the anonymous people who sent me the messages I shared above, along with distant acquaintances.

The Box Seats include people who built the arena, or the ones who dictate the expectations we feel me must meet. For me, this consists primarily of people on Instagram whom I perceive as “perfect” and who seem to live life so effortlessly. They’ve set a standard of “perfection” that I often feel pressured to live up to.

The Critics Section includes the messages of comparison, scarcity and shame. These can represent internal messages as well as messages we get from people in our lives. For me, the key is recognizing when those messages are coming from my internal critic — comparing how I measure up to my perception of others, telling myself I’m not pretty enough, skinny enough, smart enough, strong enough, cool enough, brave enough (and it goes on), and that I’ll never feel love or belonging in this arena because I’m just so flawed (this is shame talking).

Lastly, the Support Section includes the most important seats in the arena: empathy and self-compassion. The people in our lives who demonstrate empathy (not sympathy) for us sit here, as do the supportive messages of empathy and self-compassion. Sitting in this section for me is my husband, my Savior, my family, a few close friends, and I’m starting to dust off a seat for myself.

If we can listen to the people and messages in the Support Section more than the other sections in our arenas, we can overcome the feelings of comparison, scarcity and shame and find the courage to show up and be seen.

But it takes practice. Every single day.

And it’s hard and sucky sometimes.

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Learning to live brave.

So while I continue to learn all I can about the stuff that gets in the way of living my own brave life, I’ve never felt more scared and excited to open up. It’s awkward, it’s uncertain, it’s incredibly uncomfortable, it’s absolutely imperfect, but I’m all in.

This is the kind of life I want to live. I want to be brave. I’ve carried the 20-ton perfectionism shield for too long and it’s never made me feel brave or alive… or given me really toned muscles, for heck’s sake.

Facing my fears in an imperfect, brave way is the only thing beyond motherhood that I feel I was born to do. I’m redefining myself with each vulnerable blog post and I’d love to connect with you along the way.

What’s one arena in your life where you want to show up and be more brave?

Even if you’re still soaking this in, I’ve found that identifying our arenas is the first step to finding the courage to enter them.

Then we can get real about what we can take into the arena(s) with us (armor, anthem, mantra, strategies, etc.). I can’t wait to chat more.

And if you haven’t yet picked up a copy of Brené Brown’s Daring Greatly, you can do so here. It’s the book on which everything I’m learning is based. And this quote from Teddy Roosevelt that inspired her book title and much of the framing for her work is sure to ignite your courageous heart, too.

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Daring Greatly.
Borrowed straight from Brené Brown’s book intro… The phrase Daring Greatly is from Theodore Roosevelt’s speech “Citizenship in a Republic.” The speech, sometimes referred to as “The Man in the Arena,” was delivered at the Sorbonne in Paris, France, on April, 23, 1910. This is the passage that made the speech famous:

“It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes up short again and again,

Because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause;

Who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly….”



  1. Asaake says:

    I love Brene Brown! Her book on letting go on who you are supposed to be ane embracing who you have changed everything for me! I definitely need to find/create my own arena! Thanks for such a beautiful and timely post!.

    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
    • Thanks for your sweet comment! I couldn’t agree more. The Gifts of Imperfection was the first of Brene’s books that I stumbled upon and her work has changed my life. So happy to hear it did the same for you. XO

      Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
  2. I’m glad you’re living bravely, you’re doing such a great job so far! ❤

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    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
  3. Ray says:

    Love how beautifully written this is and also being a blogger, there’s loads for me to take away.


    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
    • Thank you so much, Ray! The blogging world is fierce, but an incredible avenue for connection. Thanks for taking the time to comment. xo

      Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
  4. Madelyn says:

    Great post! You are not alone….I just started really pursuing my blogging as a possible career in the future. I liaterally just asked my husband this morning if it was weird to wake up one day totally confident and wake up the next feeling not at all. I’m not far enough along to have a ton of comments from people, but I’m my own worst critic!

    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
    • Thanks so much for your comment, Madelyn! I have so been there and still have mornings like that. The best advice I can give (as a blogger for the past 5 years) is to align your blog with your purpose. What are you so passionate about in life that you just can’t wait to share it with others? I wish I would have figured this out sooner, but now I’m realizing I was just afraid, so I guess it all has it’s place in my story anyway.

      Feel free to stop by if I can be of any help along the way! xo

      Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
      • Madelyn says:

        Thank you for the feedback and for sharing your wisdom! I will put your advice into practice. Thank you!

        Posted November 20, 2017 | Reply
        • Thanks so much for reading and sharing your thoughts, Madelyn! I have several more blog posts coming on this same topic so stay tuned (and feel free to sign up for my newsletter to be notified of new posts). XO

          Posted November 23, 2017 | Reply
  5. Rach says:

    Amanda, I admire you for sharing your thoughts especially on this topic. This has been on my mind a lot lately. I’ve been wanting to share more of my thoughts but constantly feel ashamed or concerned what others think. Thank you!


    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
    • Rach! I am so with you, sister. I have always seen you as someone with courage and I’ve envied you for that. You are amazing. I struggle daily to silence the critic in my head that tells me to fear what people think, so I know exactly what you mean. It’s baby steps all day every day over here. 😉

      Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
  6. helen says:

    I’ve heard such great things about Brene Brown, and I’m glad to hear that you’ve found it to be so inspiring. This was a beautiful post and I look forward to seeing how you continue to pursue the goal to live bravely.


    Posted October 30, 2017 | Reply
  7. Dessica says:

    I needed this today, thank you!

    Posted October 31, 2017 | Reply
  8. Amanda. I love you so much. I don’t think I can articulate in words without sounding cheesy or trite how brave I think you are. Instagram is a shame trigger for me too, and sometimes I want to completely ditch it for that reason. I can only imagine the added pressure being a fashion blogger would add to an already tough arena. But it is so clear to me that you are unique. You are not doing what you do online just for you. You are here to share a really beautiful, important voice. A voice I connect with so easily although we haven’t even met! (We NEED to correct that.) The social media world sucks a lot of the time. But it would suck so much more if people like you weren’t part of it. Also, Brene is my homegirl. I’m reading Braving the Wilderness right now and it it hitting home for me because of some belonging insecurities I have been feeling!

    Posted November 25, 2017 | Reply
    • Kim! I love you to death. I can’t believe we haven’t met in person. What is your schedule like in December? We should find a day for a quick lunch date.

      Thank you so much for your kind words. You really do have a way with words, you know. Always so well spoken and articulate and I admire you more than you know. Brene’s work has literally changed my life. I’ve been intentionally putting it into practice for the past 3 months and even though it has made me feel very brave, I still feel very afraid at times. I’m learning that’s part of the journey. If we step into the arena, we will get our butts kicked (sometimes by ourselves and no one else).

      Braving the Wilderness is next on my list. I’m so glad to hear you’re loving it. I for sure have belonging insecurities, too. We should start a little virtual book club or something. I know you have Wordy Wednesdays, but I’d love to team up on the Brene books if you’re interested. I dunno. Something to chat about over lunch!

      I could write you a novel, but I’ll stop. Just know I think the world of you and your big heart! XOX

      Posted November 30, 2017 | Reply